A few months ago I shared these words on instagram and today, I feel them come back to me:
i feel so much life in these moments. these small, quiet moments. when i’m not thinking about the future, or about where my feet will land in five years time. or even where they’ll take me tomorrow. i’m just thinking about right now. i’m right here. it’s not just about your ending. people always ask, “what do you want to be when you grow up?” or “what road do you see yourself heading down?” and we all have dreams and plans and goals. but we’re also alive. right now. and right now should be treasured and loved as much as your dreams and plans and goals. commit to life. commit to being here. commit to losing yourself in these small, quiet moments. no matter what the world may try to tell you, they’re important too. and what would be the point of any of this, if we don’t even give ourselves the space we need to notice it. what would be the point of all these small magical moments that make up life, if we’re always too busy looking away, out of fear that we might miss the future. take a breath. take it in. your future isn’t going anywhere. but this. right now. these moments are coming and going fast. and if you look away for too long. you may just miss it.
One of my biggest hopes for this blog was not just to give myself a space to express my thoughts, but to also connect with like-minded people. To connect with other creative souls and remind myself to live presently in these beautiful moments. This year, I’ve found the saying “your vibe attracts your tribe” to ring so true. I’ve felt it’s magic. I’ve felt so whole this past year and how I’ve grown with each changing season. And in feeling that way, I’ve learnt more and more about what kind of energy I want to welcome into my life.
On Tuesday night, I met with the beautiful Mia (now before you read any further you should definitely check out her blog because it’s incredible, and she’s so kind and funny and just all-round awesome), we had such a great time together and I’m so happy we decided to meet. I think we probably spent more time laughing than we did talking, and it honestly felt like we’d known each other for years. Of course, we did what any two young kids in London on a Tuesday night would do… we went for pancakes. Nachos and butterscotch pancake stacks. Just writing about them is making me want to go back for more (see what I’m saying about the small moments, they’re delicious).
As if laughing and talking over pancakes wasn’t enough, we were about to try something new and exciting: The Roof Gardens outdoor cinema, and we were going to see the film that never fails to send my heart on a rollercoaster ride La La Land.
Okay, so I’m going to dedicate this next little bit to that beautiful movie.
First thing, I absolutely adore the soundtrack, cinematography and style of La La Land. But mostly, I connect so deeply to its subject. I can relate to the struggles and brutally difficult road of successfully breaking into the music and film industry – the road I’m currently driving down. But even more than that, I can relate to the burning passion. That “nothing-else-makes-me-this-happy” feeling. And that’s something we can all relate to. We all have something that lights our hearts on fire. We all have something we burn for. Or maybe some are still looking for it. And that’s perfectly okay too.
And we all know love and sacrifice and loss. Loss of somebody we care about, or even loss of an oppurtunity or a dream. Most of us can relate to that too. Maybe we haven’t even lost anything yet, but sometimes we feel like we have – or we feel like we will. We don’t feel good enough or we question our ability to go all the way.
And you know, that’s what makes La La Land so beautiful. It’s real. It shows the good, the bad and the ugly. The ups and the downs. Life’s not perfect, neither are relationships nor dreams. They’re temperamental and confusing and stubborn. But they’re also fulfilling and thrilling, and magic. And so are we. It portrays raw life. And life is a beautiful mess. (I guess that’s why I feel like an emotional mess after watching it).
I guess what I’m trying to say is… Go try something new, like watching a film on a rooftop. Make memories. Explore your city. Meet new people – you may think it’s going to be awkward or you’re going to seem too forward, but you may also end up making a really awesome new friend. Eat some pancakes, they make everything sweeter. Laugh too loudly. Cry happy or sad tears at your favourite film. Be open to feeling inspired. Dream bigger every single day. Climb out of your comfort zone. Put yourself and your energy out into the world.
Live for the small moments, the big beautiful moments, the scary moments, the life-changing moments. Live through it all. Live for right now.
This is it. This is life. Doesn’t it feel so damn good?